Strength In Solitude

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On the 2 year anniversary of my leap of faith I cant help but feel strong, virile, and invincible. This time 2 years ago I was just touching down in Decatur, Georgia full of adrenaline, ready to take on the world. I felt like there was nothing on this earth that I couldn’t accomplish and to this day that fire still lives within me. I’ve taken the opportunities and platforms afforded to me and had my way with them, something I feel like I wouldn’t have done if I was still in Chicago with my family to catch me. Since I’ve been here I’ve met some of the world’s greatest people, but also some of the not so great. Atlanta introduced me to the illegitimate companies that go the extra mile to book you an interview for a company that absolutely does not exist. Initially I was bewildered, but as time went on I remembered Desiigner speaking about “broads in Atlanta, credit cards and the scammers”, he knew early what was up and I was so busy bopping to it I made it no mind. That taught me to research, I had to learn that even though this was supposed to be “company” to look them up and see who they were and what they offered. Companies know when you’re open and just like an animal on its prey they will come after you if they sense that you’re ignorant. Trust me.

Atlanta introduced me to southern hospitality and what it meant to be chasing a dream in the Black Mecca. Truth of the matter is, everyone is chasing something. This is the hustlers city and although I’m from a place where if you can make it there, you can make it anywhere, I felt right at home. Through all of my tears, I wanted to give up several times, but I never wanted to go back to Chicago. This was home for me and I planned to make it very comfortable for myself. I’ve become an impeccable, yet vulnerable woman while being here and I don’t think without this Georgia air I’d breathe as light as I do.

Despite not having my friends and family around me I always feel taken care of and looked after. Yes, I miss them like crazy and when I saw my mother for the first time in 6 months I cried like we had just met for the first time in my life. In the pursuit of your own happiness, it’s very easy to slip into this solitude and keep your head down. You’ll fall off the face of the earth and people will think you’re “acting funny”. Truth of the matter is, if you’re anything like me you’re tunnel visioned so you’ve blocked out anything that’s not assisting your goal. That’s not to say that others and the things that occur in their lives are unimportant, it’s just really that you’ve honed in on yourself.  This mentality will come off very selfish, so be prepared to hear that word thrown at you a lot in the process of your breakthrough. This however will teach you the benefit of networking. I went to a big HBCU in the south, I was unaware that so many people that I knew were here, but it made me appreciate my choice to jump so much more.

Your loved ones will be proud and root you on from the sidelines,but the cold hard facts are that when working toward your aspirations others just won’t understand, and to connect with them on a level where they can, will be difficult. It maybe strenuous until you come up for air or until you reach your destination. For me it was coming up for air at that 6 month mark as I realized life was still going on around me. I still wonder if I’m doing the right thing or if it’s the right time. I’ve come to terms with the fact that my dream won’t happen with just the one woman army I believe I am, but I crave my own thoughts and breathing room because when I cry, I’m alone. When it’s time to lick my wounds I can do that alone as well.

It’s always been about the fight for me. Grind, fight, pray and keep going. “When you first begin to embark on your own journey in life, you shed the cocoon of familiarity and explore life with your true identity. As you begin to navigate your own life in your own direction, you place yourself in a vulnerable position. You feel this vulnerability very quickly, and you notice how far you drift from the safety and comforts of everything you were once used to.” (Terry Sidhu, Why the Path to Success Can Be Lonely) I couldn’t have placed those words in better form. People always preach that there is strength in numbers and I don’t disagree. But only for certain things. In life when you have a vision, as much as you may want others to see it the same way you do, the unfortunate reality is they will not. Therefore, it is important that you have it in front of you and prepare yourself for the leg work. There is a strength in being alone as well. Embarking on a journey by yourself makes you subconsciously accountable. If you fail at some thing you were completely without help in the matter, so you can’t blame anyone for the outcome. Those lessons that you’ll receive will mean that much more though.

Forcing myself to rely on my own judgement and instinct is probably one of my greatest qualities. It bothers me to be micromanaged. If you run into the wall, take it on the chin like a champ, you’ll know better for next time. I thank God I come from big because it taught me how to maneuver on my own. I didn’t have the fear that a lot of people from smaller cities had; like asking for directions or hopping on public transit to get where I needed to be. I said all this to say JUMP! I’ll have a shot of …something tonight and when I wake up, the beginning of my 3rd year in my new life will be better than my 2nd.

Watch me work.

With Love,

Storie Stone

The Storie Will Be Televised

B R I L L I A N T. Successful Project Product. Proud Black Sheep and all around Thoroughbred. 26. Planted in Chicago,IL | Blossomed in Atlanta, GA

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